Sometimes you just wanna look cute 

I had to wear scrubs for 6 weeks straight which has its pros and cons.


  • You don't have to figure out what to wear in the morning.

  • You reduce laundry significantly

  • You don't have to worry about hospital germs getting on your good clothes


  • Scrubs are non flattering, stiff, boxy and make you feel ugly

For the first few weeks, those ugly scrubs didn't make a difference. I was trying to stay afloat, trying not to drown during my first week in the NICU ever. The stiffness of my scrubs didn't matter. Those scrubs meant I could get an extra hour of sleep, eat breakfast, not have to pick my clothes out the night before, things that feel like small victories when you are spending hours in the hospital.

But as I got the hang of what I was doing, and as my scrubs began to fit a little tighter, and as the fuzzies started to peak out from my braids, I felt ugly.

I tried slicking down the fuzzies with some gel, I tried wearing fancy earrings, I even tried putting on perfume. But nothing could remedy how I felt.

So I turned to the internet to do some online shopping. But buying clothes would be a waste of money, because I still had a few weeks left of wearing scrubs. So I decided to buy some make up , because I could wear that with scrubs. I went to the Colour Pop website and bought 5 different colors, because I couldn't decide and because it was free shipping if you spend $30 or more.

I was so excited for the lipstick to come in the mail and checked my mailbox everyday. But days passed and then weeks passed and my lipstick still hadn't arrived. In the mean time, I started going back to the gym.

I was getting back into the swing of things, jump roping, weight lifting, drinking water, eating healthy. Wes was really helpful too, keeping me on track, encouraging me to not give up. And soon those scrubs mattered less and I may have looked ugly on the outside but felt beautiful in the inside.

And then it happened: my lipstick came in the mail! I was planning to meet Wes at the gym that day, but not before I tried on ever single shade I had purchased. Long story short I ended up going to the gym with purple lipstick on.

So my fashion hiatus finally came to an end and I could finally wear real clothes again! But I spent so much time wearing scrubs, I didn't know how to pick out clothes any more.

The lesson in all of this, there is none. Sometimes you just wanna look cute.